I finished reading another love book, in the end the hero became into a playboy and wanted to date an innocent beautiful girl, and I of course I hated this, I had had the control in all my whole life that I have forgotten that it's pretty painful being used. I say that I forgot because finally I decoded an important part of my unconscious, there is a big proclamation in my unconscious that says that I won't be used. I guess this comes from my past life because I don't find another logical explanation for my unconscious. I mean, my childhood was not that bad, so I have to go back even further than my childhood. Yes, I'm conscious that probably this are the feelings of my mom before I was born too.